seaton sluice crop day

it's that time of the month again, time for a trip to seaton sluice for the crop, as it was the last one before xmas we had food and a secret santa too, had a lovely time as usual, mind you i was just about to leave home to pick up heather when the phone rang, it was maria, her car wouldn't start so would i get the keys and open up, didn't mind at all, then when i'd got along to heathers i though i could probably pop in for the kits while we passed so we did that

by the time we got to seaton sluice everyone was waiting so we all just piled in got the kits sorted and started, poor maria turned up about an hour late but at least she made it, got the kits from the all day crop last week too as they were lovely. we had a lovely spread of food and the most delicous cake courtesy of emma! we then did the secret santa i got a lovely mug full with chocolate, and a whisk to mix it with, hazels little friend gemma got the present i brought and she seemed to like it

need to buy one more xmas present as by the sounds of things heather may have got me a present so was trying to buy something tonight online but my credit card runs out tomorrow so i'll have to wait until monday to do the shop.

got a letter from the psychiatrist today so i have an assessment appointment next thursday at 10:30, looks like i'll be back at work after christmas as planned

occ health and a funeral

not a great day today, firstly i had my second appointment with occupational health, it was ok though, the health advisor says they will be able to access cognitive behaviour therapy through the council so he is going to refer me and i should have heard about it within a couple of weeks rather than having to wait for months through the psychiatry department, so that's a good thing, he wants to see me again in six weeks time and also wants me to try to go in to work for a visit. don't know about that but i might give it a go

had a funeral to go to as well, we found out last night that auntie margaret had died while we were away and her funeral was today, wasn't sure if we could make it but the people at occ health saw me a bit earlier so we were able to get there, ceri and ian were there too and she took my number, hope she doesn't ring though it's always hard to make conversation and she's too needy, and that is something i really don't need at the minute,

dad's gone off to the bowling club and i said i'd pick him up so as soon as we get back in i intend in having a play with my new bia

done a hard thing

did two hard things for me over the passed couple of days, firstly i made myself go to cathy's glad to be alive party, was really worried about it but bit the bullet and went, even got the bus up lol, got there quite early so it was quiet. she was really delighted i had come and loved the bob dylan card i made for her, it got quite tough as everyone came in and come over to see me, rosemary but her finger right on it when she said i was sitting looking like i had my eyes on all the exits! had a few tears but i am glad i went as it's another step to being back to normal, also had a good chat with clare and it turns out she is starting cbt too, so at least i'll have someone to talk too about it.

the other hard thing i've done is to end my friendship with elizabeth, sent her an email saying i don't want to be friends anymore, tbh i've not wanted to be friends for ages i just haven't had the courage to tell her, i hate it when she calls over or phones, i try to think of any excuse not to see her or speak to her so i've been courageous, and though i know i have hurt her all i feel is a sense of relief that at last the friendship is over

a fab time was had by most LOL

back from our holidays and we had a lovely time, everything was great from the coach and the couriers, to the rooms and the food, even had two nice people to share a table in the dining room, the only complaint i have is the people who go on holiday and do absolutely nothing but moan, the heating wasn't on all night, the seat rotation was ridiculous etc etc etc, there was one woman in particular who i really had to bite my tongue whenever i was around as she was such a pain in the bottom.

spent an absolute fortune though, i bought tons of jewellrey and the cutest little teddy bear, he could end up to be the start of a new obsession though,

will probably be having a very early night in bed as we were up at 5:30 this morning to get our cases onto the coach

to tidy or not to tidy that is the question!

been having a lazy morning, reading the papers, catching up on uks, eating greggs scicillian lemon muffins :) then after that though i'd better make a start on the holiday packing, dad's suitcase took 10 mins, i took a bit longer deciding just exactly what i would take with me, i've made my mind uo but i won't pack it all until later on to save the creases,

so i sat in the craft room and looked around, the place looks like a bomb has been dropped LOL so do i tidy it up, do i leave it until we get back from scotland bearing in mind i'll have to pack my crop bag for the sunderland crop when we get back or do i just leave it until i get back from the sunderland crop

desicions desicions !!!!!!

more sewing

been playing around with more bits of fabric this afternoon, i'd seen these fabric flowers in a kit on uks and thought i can do that, so one circle of fabric, a button and a bit of thread later and they are done, though i might make a few more to go on the patchwork quilt think i'm making.

also had a bit play with my alcohol inks on some acetate, dried it with a heat gun then punched out some flowers shapes. my little book of autumn looks great too and i've done lots of stamping, distressing and inking on each page, just need to take and add the photo's now

went to get the holiday spendies today so i have cash for next week. treat myself to a new woolly hat to keep my ears warm and some new gloves too

i have been creative :)

decided i wasn't going to sit around doing nothing all day so went into my craft room and did a cj entry, then i got the shimelle autumn pizza box of love kit a couple of months ago and decided to make a little book of autumn with it so i can take lots of my usual strange photo's when we're in scotland next week and put them in there.

while i was busy my anna griffin fabric squares came from qvc, they are really lovely and i had already thought i fancied making a wall hanging or the craft room so i dug my sewing machine out of the back of the cupboard and made a start. i was really surprised when the machine started up first time as it must be at least 3 or 4 years since i used it, i've just picked squares at random and sewn them together in strips of 7, have 4 rows sewn together so far and it looks really good, so good that it might go in my bedroom instead.

bloody paypal

i am so fed up with this paypal fiasco, had to get onto the phone to them again last night and got passed through to the resolution centre this time, and i'm still no further forward, so i'm just going to keep trying every day to close the account and send cheques off the the people i bought off, which probably means i'm going to end up paying twice for everything which i can't afford but if it get's paypal off my back it'll be woth it.

so i had a bad nights sleep worrying about it again then when i switched my mobile on there was a message off val asking if he could come and see me, so of course that set me into panic mode on case there's a problem, the sooner i get my cbt started the better i think

finally !!!!!

finally managed to get some scrapping done today after being a chauffeur for dad again most of the morning and then when he rang to be picked up again this afternoon he never even said thankyou. managed to get a couple done, here's one of them

still no joy with the paypal fiasco though, i've tried about three times this afternoon to close the bloody account and no luck so i've just sent them another snotty email

chat night for the rikrakravers on uks tonight so i'll have to stay up a bit for that and anyway it's heroes night so i'll watch next weeks episde on bbc 3 later on

weird dream watch #1

had an early night in bed last night due to being so stressed out by this paypal fiasco, took ages to drop off to sleep as usual but wheni did i had another of my trademark weird dreams

i dreamt i was 18 and on a school trip to stockport, we were on a coach and playing games and selling raffle tickets and playing the lottery, as we got close we could see blackpool tower and as we drove along the coast there was a burnt out jumbo jet in the sea, when we stopped for fish and chips i went to the toilet and had a haemorrage (sp?) and was lying on the toilet floor in pools of blood, other people kept coming into the toilet and stepping over me and just leaving me there, so i managed to drag myself out of the toilet and started throwing tins of beans that were lying on the floor at people to get their attention.

any ideas anyone or am i in need of urgent psychiatric treatment :lol:

why can't i smile?

i was going to do some scrapping today but never got round to it what with spending most of the afternoon screaming down the phone to the imbecile's at paypal, and being a chauffeur for dad, but i aslo had to go and get some passport photo's taken.

the boss at work had reaslised that all of our crb shecks were out of date so we need knew ones and i set about filling in my form. it requests proof of identity one form being a valid passport, whoops i don't have one and i'll be damned if i'm paying 70 quid plus for one so decidedto go the cheaper route of a photo driving liscense (still £17.50)

so off i goes to wallsend while dad was in the chiropodist and got my photo's taken, 4 qiud!!!! for 4 photo's!!!!! they're only 5p a print in asda!!!! and why the hell can't you smile on them, i mean i'm not saying a big cheesy grin but just a litle smile, i look such a miserable cow in them!!!!! so on the subject of cows (we may not have been but we are now) thought i'd show you one of my many cow lo's, i have a bit of an obsession with them you see :)

why a weird mind?

well i think i'm quite weird, i have a weird taste in clothes, music and the way i wear my hair, i certainly don't fit in with the stereotypical image of a woman my age, no hubbie no kids, i also love taking weird photo's that maybe other people don't and certainly my best scrapbooking lo's are of weird things :lol:

i'm sure even my friends think i'm a bit strange but i like being different :lol: i'm going on holiday soon and will be taking lots of photo's of strange weird and wonderful things, lets hope the weather stays nice

and the weird mind bit, well i think it is, it's like there is a few people in there and my mind never shuts uo, it's constantly on the go with random thoughts , weird dreams and very confusing conversations!!!! you may not thin that's weird but i do

my very first post

thought i would join the blogging world, don't know why, just fancied it. i don't even know what i'll use it for, my scrapping stuff, my hopes ,my fears frustrations and follies, or maybe just someone to off load to when i'm feeling down!

god knows what it will turn out like as i am so hopeless at anything remotely techie :) but i'm prepared to give it a go